Making life changing decisions
School and college don't always prepare you for the real world!
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"I’m a little lost and I don’t know where my thoughts and feelings are half of the time."
All throughout school we all spent endless hours studying math, French, English and so forth but not one of these could prepare me for adult life and what the future would hold. I always thought about this and the weird question that I thought of was have you ever really wanted to do something, but never really known what it is and how to find it?
Throughout school I had the idea that I wanted to be a person that would make a difference in the world, helping others and working in a hands-on environment. Yes, I wished I had superpowers and that could solve all the world’s greatest problems. At 18, I decided to study social studies, did I know the ins and out of course and if I’d like it? No, but I hoped I would. In school, I wasn’t naturally gifted in certain subjects and I most definitely didn’t have the memory of an elephant.
I had to work at almost everything to get anything over 50%. I was always a little jealous, that my flare wasn’t in art, music, English or maths. Things you can hear, see and feel.
After finishing college with a good degree in my pocket, I thought everything would just fall into place. I’d find myself my dream job and I’d fall in love and live happily ever after…yeah right….
I did fall in love though but it didn’t quite work out how I had hoped, but that story is for another day.
I moved home after college and stayed in retail for a year…not knowing what to do with my degree, until I made the decision to move to Dublin. It took me almost one year to find my feet and find something that interested me but now I’ve itchy feet.
When I walk down the streets of Dublin, I see so many talented people who walk by me and those who have lost their way and sit on the street corners. I don’t feel like I’m much different to them, I’m a little lost and I don’t know where my thoughts and feelings are half of the time, but I do know when I’m working with children I get this little butterfly feeling in my belly, that I’m making a difference, helping them to blossom and learn through play. I still don’t feel teaching toddlers is my calling though.
I feel I’m missing something and particularly today it was playing on my mind. This morning, I watched a sad movie about two kids falling in love but their love was thrown apart by life decisions but then they reunited. Obviously by the end of the movie I had snots all over my face and my t-shirt was drenched and my eyes were puffy.
But I realised one thing, instead of focusing on the not knowing, focus on what you do know, focus on your abilities, and having the capability to change your own life and the path it should wonder. So I made the first step. I looked into a job in New York, yeah New York City, from one concrete jungle to the next.